Life has a funny way of dictating itself rather than allowing you to live it precisely the way we desire… Looking back I never imagined that I would end up where I’m at although this place is far off from the destination I pursue. Everything I initially had hoped for is gone. Still I try to remain grateful for the things I have. It is almost surreal that I’m even here today. Death surely has come close. Lately at times I wonder if I’m unaware that I’m already a ghost. Whether dead or alive on life goes. Surrendered to God four years ago baptized & official. Kind of crazy how much things have changed from the different obstacles, challenges faced, struggles I’ve been through & alone enduring some of the most difficult issues. Only the strong survive so loyal friends who care are very rare, far & few. When things get thick it exposes the truth as to what is what, when it’s then, why, where & who is who. A bit astonishing the many loved ones gone beyond & even more here I don’t see, hear, touch & cannot talk to that I once knew. Indeed I do miss you…
I just wanna give a big shout out to those who have been down with me, stayed down with me, been patient, tolerated my struggle, walked with me through trouble, who have helped keep me focused, taught me how to stay humble & believed in me. Those who gave, those who put forth the effort to make a difference in my life. Good, bad, better or worse, right or wrong riding with me. The ones who allowed me just an opportunity whether lose, draw, forfeit or win to prove myself a worthy & true friend. I can’t thank you all enough for the love.
Lord I don’t know where you’re going but where ever you go I will follow. I don’t know what you are trying to say to me but speak I am listening. I don’t know when you will reveal yourself but I am watching. I don’t know how long it will be but I’m waiting….
Luke 6:31-36
31 Do to others as you would have them do to you.
32 “If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them. 33 And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners do that. 34 And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, expecting to be repaid in full. 35 But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. 36 Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.